I didn't sleep much. I thought I would because crying is exhausting, but I couldn't. I never got into that deep sleep. I kept waking up. I only checked my phone for the time twice. Once at 2:30am and then again at 6:45am, when I decided that going back to sleep seriously wouldn't happen. It was so hard to get to sleep. It wasn't my bed, my ( Read more... )

  Remember how I said I Facebooked Amy and we talked and then we talked at Michael's party and now everything is alright between us? And how I said I had thoughts about hooking up with her again? Well...

me: are you seeing anyone?

her: No, i'm not. I'm kinda interested in a guy but we're just friends at this stage and I think it might just stay that ( Read more... )

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Breathe in.

Hold for eight counts.

Breathe out, slowly.

Concentrate.

Concentrate on the breathing.

Nothing else. There is nothing else.

Ok. I'm weird. I'm in one of those weird crazy moods where nothing makes sense but everything does. Where all I want is to not think, but all I can do is think. I can't shut it off. I don't want to ( Read more... )

I need a new tactic. Going through it all like that wasn't working. I was getting too frustrated. I still am frustrated, but now I've put a movie on to help me focus, a little like using Twilight but with the movie I'm watching it all the time. I'll keep reading when the movie finishes.

I don't know if I can keep doing this. I can't do it today ( Read more... )

I don't know where to start again with this. Chronological order doesn't sound logical right now. I could do in order of importance, but I know that I'd forget the old ones. Do I even need to go through them? I don't know. Where do I draw the line? I talked about Lyrah and falling out when we were fifteen, which was five years ago. Is that a good ( Read more... )

I’m bisexual, more (and more openly) attracted to women though. I’ve been with my boyfriend for four years, we started dating in 2004. We’ve been through so many up and downs, and he supports my sexuality one hundred per cent. I also identify as polyamorous, which means I believe in having multiple loves/relationships. He’s not so supportive of ( Read more... )

I think I just got my fastest ever time in solataire. I did 64 seconds and had a score of like 11000 something. I'm a die hard solataire player. I'm addicted. I go through phases with it and taipei, just because I like quick things to pass the time while I'm doing whatever. Sometimes I get urges to play, and I'll stop mid blog to play a game. It's ( Read more... )

I cashed my tax cheque today, and what did I do but spend money. I really suck at saving money, but what's the good of having money if you can't spend it. I wanted new stuff anyway. I gave $700 to Mark , and we raced over and got his new glasses out this morning. They only cost him about $350 because he'd already paid some off and he was covered by ( Read more... )

Today has been a mediocre day. It's worse now. I just spent a few hours with Mark's family. We went there for dinner. I was against it from the start, but being a Wednesday night, and us having no real plans for dinner or anything, I couldn't say no. It was boring. The food wasn't even that nice. I sat there again in my own little world, just like ( Read more... )

Last night at the raffles I was made to endure the cliched sexism that you'd expect from someone like Daniel. We didn't go to the raffles with him, but him and Chad go and Mark and I went last night so of course we ran into each other. Mark made us sit with them, even though I'd told him that I didn't want to. Mark went to collect the leg of lamb ( Read more... )